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{
(print: "<script>$('html').removeClass(\)</script>")
(if: (passage:)'s tags's length > 0)[
(print: "<script>$('html').addClass('" + (passage:)'s tags.join(' ') + "'\)</script>")]
(print: "<script>$('tw-story').removeClass(\)</script>")
(if: (passage:)'s tags's length > 0)[
(print: "<script>$('tw-story').addClass('" + (passage:)'s tags.join(' ') + "'\)</script>")]
}<<set $captions to true>><<set $audio to true>>
<<set $a01 to "mem020">>
<<set $a02 to "mem024">>
<<set $a03 to "mem006">>
<<set $a04 to "mem057">>
<<set $a05 to "mem055">>
<<set $a06 to "mem053">>
<<set $a07 to "act01">>
<<set $a08 to "mem007">>
<<set $a09 to "mem035">>
<<set $a10 to "mem009">>
<<set $a11 to "mem029">>
<<set $a12 to "mem013">>
<<set $a13 to "mem015">>
<<set $a14 to "act02">>
<<set $a15 to "mem018">>
<<set $a16 to "mem026">>
<<set $a17 to "mem017">>
<<set $a18 to "mem010">>
<<set $a19 to "mem033">>
<<set $a20 to "mem022">>
<<set $a21 to "act03">>
<<set $a22 to "mem070">>
<<set $a23 to "mem073">>
<<set $a24 to "mem044">>
<<set $a25 to "mem052">>
<<set $a26 to "mem071">>
<<set $a27 to "mem034">>
<<set $a28 to "mem031">>
<<set $a29 to "mem064">>
<<set $a30 to "mem011">>
<<set $a31 to "mem041">>
<<set $a32 to "mem002">><<set $passage to "stream00">><<set $nextpass to "prestream">><<set $length to "39s">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "stream00next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "stream00 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "stream00 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen01">><<set $nextpass to "listen02">><<include $a01>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $length to "182s">><span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem020 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem020 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $passage to "listen02">><<set $nextpass to "listen03">><<include $a02>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen03">><<set $nextpass to "stream01">><<include $a03>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "stream01">><<set $nextpass to "listen04">><<set $length to "59s">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "stream01next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "stream01 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "stream01 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>>
<<set $length to "84s">><span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem024 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem024 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "98s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem006 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem006 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "90s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem007 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem007 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "132s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem009 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem009 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "182s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem010 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem010 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "76s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem013 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem013 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "185s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem015 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem015 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "164s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem017 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem017 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "167s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem018 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem018 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "160s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem022 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem022 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "78s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem026 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem026 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $passage to "listen04">><<set $nextpass to "listen05">><<include $a04>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen05">><<set $nextpass to "listen06">><<include $a05>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen06">><<set $nextpass to "stream02">><<include $a06>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "stream02">><<set $nextpass to "listen07">><<set $length to "34s">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 12s>><<replace #footer>><<include "stream02next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "stream02 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "stream02 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen07">><<set $nextpass to "listen08">><<include $a07>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen08">><<set $nextpass to "listen09">><<include $a08>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen09">><<set $nextpass to "stream03">><<include $a09>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "stream03">><<set $nextpass to "listen10">><<set $length to "18s">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 8s>><<replace #footer>><<include "stream03next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "stream03 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "stream03 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen10">><<set $nextpass to "listen11">><<include $a10>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen11">><<set $nextpass to "listen12">><<include $a11>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen12">><<set $nextpass to "listen13">><<include $a12>>
<footer><<include "listennext">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "menu">><<timed 0s>>Hello, welcome to <b>The Archive</b><</timed>>
<<timed 1s>>We recommend first listening to the <<button STREAM>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto stream00>><</button>> of memories<</timed>>
<<timed 2s>>Or you can take a first step of <<button TRAINING>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto train00>><</button>><</timed>>
<footer id="footer"><<include "menufooter">> </footer>
<div class="nav-container"><div class="nav-item"><a href="https://www.afterlifeexperience.org"><<button "HOME">><</button>></a></div><div class="nav-item"><<button REPLAY>><<goto $passage>><</button>> </div><div class="nav-item"><<button "BACK">><<goto $prevpass>><</button>></div><div class="audio-controls"><div class="audio-item"><<if $captions is true>><<button 'CAPTIONS OFF'>><<set $captions to false>><<set $audio to true>><<goto $passage>><</button>><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<button 'CAPTIONS ON'>><<set $captions to true>><<goto $passage>><</button>><</if>></div><div class="audio-item"> <<if $audio is true>><<button 'AUDIO OFF'>><<set $audio to false>><<set $captions to true>><<goto $passage>><</button>><</if>><<if $audio is false>><<button 'AUDIO ON'>><<set $audio to true>><<goto $passage>><</button>><</if>></div></div><<set $passage to "train00">><<set $nextpass to "train01assign">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "train00next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train00 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train00 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $passage to "train01">><<set $length to "17s">><<set $nextpass to "memtrain01">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train01 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train01 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>>
<<set $passage to $memtrain01>><<set $nextpass to "train02">><<include trainmem01>>
<footer><<include "memtrain01next">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $passage to "train02">><<set $nextpass to "train03">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "train02next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train02 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train02 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><b>If this memory conjures a feeling, an emotion, which would it be?</b><<set $passage to "train03">><<set $nextpass to "train04">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "train03next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train03 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train03 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>>
<b>And is there a memory from your own life which shares this feeling for you?</b><<set $m to random(1, $M)>><<if $m is 1>><<include $train1A>><</if>><<if $m is 2>><<include $train1B>><</if>><<if $m is 3>><<include $train1C>><</if>><<if $m is 4>><<include $train1D>><</if>><<if $m is 5>><<include $train1E>><</if>><<if $m is 6>><<include $train1F>><</if>><<if $m is 7>><<include $train1G>><</if>><<if $m is 8>><<include $train1H>><</if>><<if $m is 9>><<include $train1I>><</if>><<if $m is 10>><<include $train1J>><</if>><<if $m is 11>><<include $train1K>><</if>>
<<set $M to 11>>
<<set $train1A to "mem007">>
<<set $train1B to "mem010">>
<<set $train1C to "mem031">>
<<set $train1D to "mem035">>
<<set $train1E to "mem011">>
<<set $train1F to "mem033">>
<<set $train1G to "mem041">>
<<set $train1H to "mem006">>
<<set $train1I to "mem034">>
<<set $train1J to "mem057">>
<<set $train1K to "mem022">>
<<set $train2A to "act01">>
<<set $train2B to "act02">>
<<set $train2C to "act03">>
<<set $train2D to "mem052">>
<<set $train2E to "mem018">>
<<set $train2F to "mem013">>
<<set $train2G to "mem015">>
<<set $train2H to "mem044">>
<<set $train2I to "mem017">>
<<set $train2J to "mem026">>
<<set $train2k to "act01">>
<<set $train3A to "mem020">>
<<set $train3B to "mem024">>
<<set $train3C to "mem055">>
<<set $train3D to "mem002">>
<<set $train3E to "mem029">>
<<set $train3F to "mem053">>
<<set $train3G to "mem071">>
<<set $train3H to "mem009">>
<<set $train3I to "mem064">>
<<set $train3J to "mem070">>
<<set $train3K to "mem073">>
<<goto train01>>
<<set $length to "29s">><<set $passage to "train04">><<set $nextpass to "memtrain02">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train04 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train04 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>>
<<set $passage to $memtrain02>><<set $nextpass to "train05">><<include trainmem02>>
<footer><<include "memtrain02next">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $m to random(1, $M)>><<if $m is 1>><<include $train2A>><</if>><<if $m is 2>><<include $train2B>><</if>><<if $m is 3>><<include $train2C>><</if>><<if $m is 4>><<include $train2D>><</if>><<if $m is 5>><<include $train2E>><</if>><<if $m is 6>><<include $train2F>><</if>><<if $m is 7>><<include $train2G>><</if>><<if $m is 8>><<include $train2H>><</if>><<if $m is 9>><<include $train2I>><</if>><<if $m is 10>><<include $train2J>><</if>><<if $m is 11>><<include $train2K>><</if>>
<b>What’s the key object inside this memory, do you think? Don’t write this down, but can you write down any reason why? What significance does this hold?</b><b>And in the memory from your own life which you’ve written down, is there a key object inside this? Why, what significance does this hold?</b><b>Anything in this memory which is missing, or something they would have changed if they could?</b><b>Anything you think in this memory which is missing or would have been changed if they possibly could?
And inside your own memory you’ve written down, anything missing or anything you’d have changed if you could?
Again, it’s ok if there isn’t. But it’s also ok if there is.</b><<set $passage to "train05">><<set $nextpass to "train06">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "train05next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train05 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train05 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $passage to "train06">><<set $nextpass to "train07">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "train06next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train06 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train06 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>>
<<set $length to "21s">><<set $passage to "train07">><<set $nextpass to "memtrain03">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train07 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train07 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>>
<<set $passage to $memtrain03>><<set $nextpass to "train08">><<include trainmem03>>
<footer><<include "memtrain03next">><<include "footer">></footer>
<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><<set $m to random(1, $M)>><<if $m is 1>><<include $train3A>><</if>><<if $m is 2>><<include $train3B>><</if>><<if $m is 3>><<include $train3C>><</if>><<if $m is 4>><<include $train3D>><</if>><<if $m is 5>><<include $train3E>><</if>><<if $m is 6>><<include $train3F>><</if>><<if $m is 7>><<include $train3G>><</if>><<if $m is 8>><<include $train3H>><</if>><<if $m is 9>><<include $train3I>><</if>><<if $m is 10>><<include $train3J>><</if>><<if $m is 11>><<include $train3K>><</if>>
<<set $passage to "train08">><<set $nextpass to "train09">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 3s>><<replace #footer>><<include "train08next">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train08 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train08 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "150s">><<set $passage to "train09">><<set $nextpass to "endtrain">><span id="text"></span>
<footer id="footer"><<include "footer">> </footer>
<<timed 40s>><<replace #footer>><<include "endtrain">><<include "footer">><</replace>><</timed>>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "train09 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "train09 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<timed $length>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>>
You can begin to imagine the film set of your own memory.
<<timed 5s>>When you see this for real, eternity begins.<</timed>><footer><nav class="nav-container listen"><div class="nav-item"><<button MENU>><<goto menu>><</button>></div><div class="nav-item listentext"><p>The stream of memories plays automatically.
Let the stream play.
Or choose to <<button SKIP>><<set $skipped to true>><<set $skip += 1>><<goto 'listen02'>><</button>></p></div></nav></footer>
<div class="prefooter"><p>You can choose to let this memory play through</p><p>Or <<button SKIP>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>> to the next</p></div><div class="prefooter"><p>If this memory conjures a feeling, an emotion, which would it be?</p></div><<set $length to "70.5s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem033 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem033 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "84s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem029 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem029 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "72s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem053 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem053 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "106s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem055 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem055 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "176s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem057 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem057 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "301s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "mem035 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "mem035 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "44s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "act01 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "act01 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "131s">>
<span id="text"></span>
<<if $audio is true>><<include "act02 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "act02 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><<set $length to "135s">>
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<<if $audio is true>><<include "act03 audio">><</if>><<if $captions is true>><<include "act03 captions">><</if>><<if $captions is false>><<include voicetext>><</if>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/stream00a.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>Hello, it's good to have you here. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>I hope you're comfortable. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>You can spend as long here in the archive as you like. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 9s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>What follows are recordings made by people just like you. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>Each recording describing a memory from their life, a memory they would choose to spend eternity inside. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 21s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>This is a random stream of some of the memories we've curated. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>You can let the stream play. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>Or skip to the next memory. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>When you've heard three memories, I'll be here to tell you a little more.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>When you're ready, press to <<button CONTINUE>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div>
<audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/stream01.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>The recordings you hear were made as part of The Facilitation.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>A piece that asks people to make a present choice of memory from their life to spend eternity inside.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>As a rehearsal before the final forever choice. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 14s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>The people you hear, they were not yet at that moment where they have to make their forever choice of memory.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>They had at least a little time to change their mind. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>As you listen, you might wonder if they did change their mind. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 14s>><<type 40ms>>Or if these memories would stay their forever choice. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 33s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>You could yourself choose now to take The Facilitation. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>It's always good to rehearse your choice. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>You might even make your own recording of a present choice of eternal memory. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 45s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>Otherwise, I'll leave you again to the stream. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>When you've heard another three memories, I'll be here again.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
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<<timed 8.5s>><<replace #text>><<type 40ms>>[audio playing]<</type>><</replace>><<timed 2s>><<replace #text>> <</replace>><</timed>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem020plusanon.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 1s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>My memory would be <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>[name]'s first birthday <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 10s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>um it was at my home my new home that we moved into<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>um not even up to six months <</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>I was 28 years old <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 21s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I remember the colours gold, <</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>a lot of <</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>of my home at the time <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 29s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>the sound of children, babies specifically <</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>was the most prevalent sound in my home that day <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 40s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>In that moment <</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>curry goat was the smell [laughs] <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>curry goat was the smell <</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>and it was a gorgeous smell <</type>><</timed>><<timed 16s>><<type 40ms>>it was it was made by by by the by the madam of the house <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 62s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and the feeling <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>I remember was the touch of [name]'s hands <</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>my daughter's hands <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 79s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and other people that were there <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>friends family uh <</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah, loved ones. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 99s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And [name] was crazy I didn't see her the whole day <</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>not the whole day but not every time. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>But I could hear her <</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>[laughs] she always made herself known <</type>><</timed>><<timed 16s>><<type 40ms>>either in the living room or in the kitchen or in the garden <</type>><</timed>><<timed 19s>><<type 40ms>>in someone's hand in her aunt's hand <</type>><</timed>><<timed 22s>><<type 40ms>>or in her uncle's hand <</type>><</timed>><<timed 23s>><<type 40ms>>or in her mom's hands <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 126s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and all I can - <</type>><</timed>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>the only feeling I had throughout the day no matter what sort of went wrong <</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>was just happiness<</type>><</timed>><<timed 16s>><<type 40ms>>and and awe <</type>><</timed>><<timed 23s>><<type 40ms>>a supreme feeling of peace and happiness. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 27s>><<type 40ms>>I don't think I've quite known before <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 160s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah, yeah. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>Happiness <</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem024a.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 2s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The memory that I've chosen to spend eternity with is<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>a memory which I found myself in in 2016. I was in India, and I was 24 years old.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 15s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>At the time, I was working in a care home.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>And I'd made a really strong connection with one of the little boys there<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>who was staying in the care home,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 26s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and he had a ball, which he had made himself,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and the ball was made out of<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>collected bags, plastic bags, and he had duct taped them together.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 37s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And he was playing football. And he asked me to play.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>And I said, That's not a ball. And he said, it is it's my ball.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 45s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And in that moment, I realised how<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>just because the object isn't<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>what we think is conventionally, like it's not a ball from the nike store<</type>><</timed>><<timed 15s>><<type 40ms>>doesn't mean that it's not a ball. It moved like a ball, he created that. And<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 68s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>that moment has always stuck with me because<</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>it taught me a lot about gratitude<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>for the things that we have and can create for ourselves.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>> <audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem006plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 3s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>We step out of a fancy restaurant in Manhattan after midnight, on a winter's night in 2000.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>We're on East 20th Street between Park and Broadway.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>I'm 33 years old and my heart is full.<</type>><</timed>>
<</replace>><</timed>><<timed 20s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>She steps out onto the sidewalk and laughs as we realise it's been snowing.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 25s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>She pulls a faux-fur hood up over her glossy dark hair and she smiles at me and takes my hand in her gloved one.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>This time next year, almost exactly to the day.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>We'll get married.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 41s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But we don't know that yet.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>There is an unnatural hush from Manhattan the streets.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 48s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Sound muffled by the thick layer of blue white snow that has fallen during the three hours we were eating.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>It's all beautiful.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 56s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Even the garbage bag lining the city streets are pretty covered this way.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>The after dinner whiskey cocktail is still warm on my tongue. And my hand is wrapped in hers.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>We live together about four blocks away. And we pass through Gramercy Park.<</type>><</timed>>
<</replace>><</timed>><<timed 75s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The thick black metal gates in France. frosted with fresh now. Fat flakes are dropping all around us.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 85s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And despite the cold, we're warm and safe<</type>><</timed>> <<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>and the world belongs to us alone.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/stream02.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>If you were to make your own forever choice of eternal memory, then a guide like myself would start the process of reconstructing this memory…<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>So you could step inside it for eternity. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 12s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>If you want a taste of what it's like to reconstruct a memory, then I'd suggest you take the first step of the training. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>Otherwise, I'll leave you again to the stream. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>After another three memories, I'll be with you one last time.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>You can continue to listen to the <<button STREAM>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p><p>Or choose to take the first step of <<button "TRAINING">><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto train00>><</button>></p></div>
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<<timed 3s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>So I would take the birth of my first child,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 35ms>>it was my son and he died a few minutes after he was born.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>The hospital staff tried to revive him for about half an hour.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 35ms>>And I just remember, I remember feeling strangely calm, even though I knew it was taking too long.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 22s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>I hadn't seen or held him.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 35ms>>I knew he was a boy.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 27s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>The hospital room suddenly went quiet. And everybody seemed to leave apart from my partner and one midwife.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 35ms>>I remember the lights being lowered.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 35ms>>And they explained that they couldn't save him.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 39s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>And I was asked if I like to hold him? And I said, No.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 35ms>>And I knew, but I knew that this was a profound moment, life coming and going, a sort of event horizon.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 52s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>I felt completely in the moment, no past no future.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 35ms>>And I remember that mundane objects had completely no meaning to me.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 35ms>>Time had stopped, I was persuaded to see my son. And I'm really glad I was.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 67s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>And I felt when I saw him and held him, I felt immense love, an overwhelming love.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 35ms>>And I held my beautiful son. And we went to a private room, and I held him.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 79s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>And my partner and I, we lay in a private double bed, and I held our son,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 35ms>>I couldn't take my eyes off of him. And I knew I had to drink in this time, because I knew that this is a brief time.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 91s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>And I held my son all night, next to my still blood stained body.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 96s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>I was amazed in the morning, that his body remained pink, and he was soft.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 35ms>>And I imagined that it was the warmth from my skin that kept the blue death color from taking over.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 113s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>And eventually, in the morning, sometime, I was persuaded to let go. And he went to the morgue.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 35ms>>But this during this whole period, time had stopped. There was no past or future.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 126s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>And nothing could make sense of what had happened. But I remember silence and I remember calm.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 35ms>>I remember that nothing bad could happen now.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 135s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>The reason I would take this moment is that whilst the most tragic thing had happened, the death of my first child, I felt immense sadness, but also acceptance.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 35ms>>everything had changed profoundly.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 149s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>I never felt so present in the moment, and I felt no obligation to anyone. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 35ms>>I felt shielded from the world. I had no worries.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 157s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 35ms>>I came to look at this as a rare opportunity to see both birth and death in the same moment. To realise that the question of where do we go to when we die? is actually the same question.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 35ms>>Where were we before we came into being?<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem057plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem053plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 3s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I'm on the dance floor,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>at my brother's wedding in a gorgeous hotel overlooking the River Thames.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>There's a huge glitter ball hanging above us.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>All of us as we're dancing, I can hear music.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 18s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>From the band playing, I can hear laughter of all the people at the wedding.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 24s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I can taste prosecco, a glass of prosecco in my hand,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>definitely not the first, definitely not the last.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 33s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And can feel the contentment of just having had what felt like an endless series of Italian food served in courses throughout the dinner.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 47s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And now, on the dance floor, I can see my brother in a three piece suit,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>with a cream ivory colored waistcoat, and tie<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>looking completely and utterly happy,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 63s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>beaming, the most enormous smile of contentment,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and looking on seeing him looking so happy, making me feel also completely content and giddy to be surrounded by family.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 79s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>By my boyfriend, future fiance, which I didn't realise at the time.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>But he was about to ar- he was about to tell my brother that he was going to ask me to marry him<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 92s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and being surrounded by close friends<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and feeling a feeling of giddiness.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem033plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 2s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The one memory<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>that<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I would choose to spend<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>in eternity would be<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 17s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Atlanta 1996 Olympics, when<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>Nigeria won Olympic gold<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 25s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and we sat there and watched as the final whistle came in,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>and my family and I could not believe it,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 35s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>and we ran out to the streets and celebrated<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 20ms>>and every member of my family was present.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 40s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And it was just such a happy moment.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>Such a beautiful moment.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 46s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I associate that moment with, you know,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>members of my family<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>who are both still alive and departed now.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 56s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>That definitely is, is the memory for me.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>Thank you<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem035plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 2s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Okay, so um, my memory.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>I've titled it Midnight Train to Georgia. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So I was seven at this age, I was in Ghana, Burma Camp<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>in 1974 <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 22s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Prior to that, it was everyone had black and white TV.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 20ms>>But prior to that, I used to listen to the radio and I came across a lady called Gladys Knight and the Pips,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 17s>><<type 30ms>>and she was singing Midnight Train to Georgia and I fell in love with with it. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 43s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I used to fantasize and picture myself singing this song, and I knew every word of this song.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 30ms>>And when I have my quiet moments, I will close my eyes and just picture what she looked like. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 59s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And picture myself holding a microphone and singing to thousands of people to this song, <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 67s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and my dad was a very high profile figure in the army,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>and working alongside the president at that time so<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>he was sent to the UK, at to train with the soldiers. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 90s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And luckily for him, when he was coming back, he knew what my dream was.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>So he recorded Gladys Knight, singing Midnight Train to Georgia on the Top of the Pops, and brought it home. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 105s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And around that time, colour TV had just been introduced to Ghana, and we were one of the few to actually get that.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>So I was upstairs, playing as usual, I was seven, and he came back, we all run down to him to find out what presents he had for everyone.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 19s>><<type 40ms>>He dished out everyone's present, and then took mine out. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 128s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And it was a cassette player. And he gave it to me, and I didn't understand it, because he hadn't written anything on it.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 20ms>>And then everyone was so excited, like whats on it? whats on it? <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 140s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So we all rushed to the TV, and push the cassette player into this video player.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>And, lo and behold, Midnight Train to Georgia start to play. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 153s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And the first time in my life, I saw Gladys Knight and the Pips, and she was pregnant, she had this beige outfit on, and had pink lipstick on, and had this Afro, massive Afro. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 169s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And she looked so cute. And it's funny, it just, it just matched my picture that I had in my head of her.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>I didn't see her as having an afro, but I saw her as this flamboyant person with the cutest face and smiling all the
time. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 188s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>She has this beautiful presence, and her brothers backing her up.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>And oh it was awesome. I sat in front of the TV and my brother was next to me. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 200s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>At this time, my, my mum and the ladies were in the kitchen cooking jollof as usual, so I could smell it.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>And everyone was was so happy with their presents or running around. But I was so focused on TV, just listening to Gladys Knight and the Pips. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 219s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And every day since that day, I will rush out I will make sure that morning comes so soon as if I could do that. But I'll, I'll just hurry up, hurry up, hurry up. Hurry up. Morning, come so soon. So I can wake up and quickly run downstairs. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 237s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I know I have to go to school, but I'll sneak downstairs just to press play again and listen to her before I go to school.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>And then after school rush back and quickly... so Gladys Knight is what was my everything, my everything and it made me so happy. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 256s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I was always singing her songs. And because I now knew what she looked like, I could picture myself just like, I could picture myself meeting her one day. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 267s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And that is the best recollection I can give one<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and I would love that moment to be my eternity memory<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>forever and ever. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 282s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So that's my story. It wasn't easy in Ghana at all. Life was hard. So to actually receive something like that was awesome. Awesome.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem009plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 2s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The time when I was believe five or six.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and it was my birthday.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 9s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I think it was my sixth birthday. It was.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I received uh<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>Thomas the Tank Engine cake from a parent.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 17s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And it meant so much to me<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>because of the sheer fact of how much Thomas the Tank Engine meant to me<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>as a child.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 27s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And my parent knew that and they got that for me.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>And it made me<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>It made me feel so happy.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 34s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>You know, it made me feel liberated.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>It also gave me that sense of connection you know,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>receiving this this cake that I liked I wanted<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 48s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>that I was so fond of<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 30ms>>I loved Thomas the Tank Engine<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 52s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>so receiving this made me feel connected to the person<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>or made me feel even more connected to the person<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>who got me this cake you know, the parent who got me this cake<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 66s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah man erm<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>up to this day that memory still sticks with me.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 72s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>You know, and how joyous I was about the cake<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>Um. Yeah.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 85s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>Just pure liberation. I just felt liberated. I felt excited.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>Happy I couldn't believe it.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 96s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>You know, I genuinely couldn't believe it.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 30ms>>Because at the time you know, I was a child. I didn't know you could get you know, you see cakes and stuff. I didn't know it was possible for me to get a Thomas the Tank Engine cake until I've got it and I was like, oh my god. Wow.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 112s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>Thomas the Tank Engine! And I was going crazy I was singing the theme song and everything.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 118s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But yeah. that's so, do you know what that's so crazy yeah, that's so crazy. Cos I remember that like yesterday mate.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem029plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 2s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>July 2018, in a field in Wales<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>it was really sunny.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I was wearing a wedding dress because it was my wedding day.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>I walked down the aisle holding onto my dad's hand<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 20ms>>well he kind of frog marched me down the aisle, actually.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 21s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And as we got to the end, and I could see my future husband<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 30ms>>he was kind of teary eyed because he was really nervous<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 30ms>>and he turned around and said,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 30ms>>You look beautiful.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 36.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And before I had a chance to answer my dad lent in,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 30ms>>and said, er thanks very much. I don't scrub up too bad do I? <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 43s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Which just resulted in us all bursting out laughing<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>and it really broke the tension.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 51.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And it was just a gorgeous day from there on in<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>and er kind of one of the happiest memories I think I have<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>surrounded by everyone that we loved.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 67s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And kind of the last time we would get everyone together.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>Before<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 73s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah, before things would change.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>So yeah<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem055plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 4s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>1983<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>in a hostel just off the Dam Square in Amsterdam,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I was 24<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>we're sitting there with a group we'd just met<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>the girl I was with had long, curly blonde hair.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 24s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>She was petite and very nice.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 29s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>We'd just met two Canadian girls one with a scab and cuts on the side of her face,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>which felt too impolite to ask at the moment,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 39s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>the young South African lad with blond curly hair.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>I can't remember what we talked about.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 46s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But we laughed, laughed.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>That may be because of the joint we were sharing,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 55s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>or the cold bottles of Heineken beer. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>I felt totally relaxed. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 63s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>There was no pressure<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem007plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 3s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0.5s>><<type 120ms>>I was untrammelled.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>Nothing was holding me there. I felt free<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>In the world,
but not <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>Out of the world but not <</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>With people but not<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 28s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>so quiet<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6.5s>><<type 40ms>>and yet the world below<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12.5s>><<type 40ms>>you could hear it so clearly,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 16s>><<type 40ms>>you could hear people talking in their gardens. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 20.5s>><<type 40ms>>You could hear chickens clucking<</type>><</timed>><<timed 24s>><<type 40ms>>cows eating grass.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 55s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>You looked up<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>and there was just dew<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>didn't really notice the sound of the gas.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 71s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>You were there and not there<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>It seemed to go on forever <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 60ms>>And not last long enough.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/act01plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I remember being in the garden.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>It was really sunny and warm.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I think I was about three.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 30ms>>We had a cherry blossom tree, and Mum would always sit on the bench and read a book.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 12s >><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>There was this one day where I was resting my head on her lap.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 17s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>She was wearing a favorite perfume, which is the same one she still wears now.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>her scarf kept drifting down. It was tickling my neck, but<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 27s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I didn't mind because it was soft and I was happy.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>The cherry blossom was pretty. I watched it fall slowly and it felt magical.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/act02plusanon.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 1s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>When I was a teenager, I used to go dancing. In the Fair- I think it was called the Fairbrass Hall. Yes on Milman Street that was right.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>And I used to go with my brother, [name].<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 15s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But I didn't always dance with [name].<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>Sometimes I dance with somebody called [name].<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 22s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>[name]. He was he was a son of the publican. And I knew him quite well. But anyway<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>this particular time, my brother got very fascinated by by this red dress that these two girls wore, and he wanted me to have a red dress like that.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 48s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>so we went all over Bolton or he did,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>to find the the material, you know, the right color, and the right material and everything.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 57s >><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And when he found it, I made the dress you know I just knocked it up, really.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>And we went dancing in the red dress.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 68s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And [name] was very interested in me that night, he liked a red dress, too.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>So I was dancing with him. And and the lighting was wonderful.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 80s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I suddenly saw [name], my brother, and he was standing over by the food because he used to sell food, you know, and drinks and things.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>And he was standing there and he was eating.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 95s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>He was eating a bit of sugar bread that there were selling. And anyway, he smiled at me.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 103s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I thought, he thinks this red dress is really nice. And he actually came over to me.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>And he asked me to dance. And now left [name] and I danced with [name].<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 120s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I think that was one of the happiest times of my life. I couldn't have been happier.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/act03plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 1s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I remember like, my Grampy he, he lived a few blocks down from where I lived<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>and he had a workshop there.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 17s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Like garage more like, and, you know, I'd kinda steal my parents' eye and run over to his place and pester him <</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>and he'd be there. Just you know, just on the weekend or just any other day really.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 37s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah, I remember the, the concrete's grey<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and you know, a lot of silver pieces here and there with with a lot of black stains and grey gunk on it.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 49s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And some oil you step on, you know, you put your hand down, you sit down, put your hand down, and then you get some really greasy stuff on your hand.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>And then you go I'd go up to Grampy and he be like what are you doing?<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 65s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But yeah, I remember he used to say this, this.. it's not a phrase but he'd say in his raspy voice out there like<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>'Alright good, good' when you when I get, you know, you teach me what a spanner is.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>What which one's a bolt a knife you know, whenever I get it, he'd be like 'good, good'.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 89s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And then we'd hear the ice cream truck ice cream car whatever we call it in the background, kind of you know,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 98s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I can't remember the music but it's just, you know, it's coming down the street and<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>again, pester Grampy and then he'd be like, alright, alright<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 112s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And then take me out to the you know,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>take me out there and we get ice cream from the ice cream truck.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 15s>><<type 40ms>>I'd like to have that.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/stream03.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>My own eternity is an endless stream of other people's memories. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>I'm glad you're still here. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>But I hope you do, in the end, make your own choice.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>You can continue to listen to the <<button STREAM>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p><p>Or take the first step of <<button "TRAINING">><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto train00>><</button>></p><p>Or leave The Archive and take <a href="https://afterlifeexperience.org/facilitation"><<button "THE FACILITATION">><</button>></a></p></div>
<audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem013plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 1s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>A moment of my life to date where I will choose to spend eternity<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>will probably be a time where I was alone in my bedroom spending time with God.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 16s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I just remember just feeling really, really, really calm, and just really being at peace.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>There was nothing on my mind.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 27s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>There was almost like<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>silence<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>like deafening silence and it was almost like<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>all my worries and like all my anxiety<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 39s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and my burdens like had gone<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>and for like that moment<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>there was just like nothing but peace of mind and happiness.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 53s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I think if there was ever<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>if there was ever a moment that I choose to spend the rest of my life it would be that<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>and probably when I was a baby, and I don't remember or recall anything.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 66s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And there was no adulting because adulting is hard.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem015plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 3s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I remember spending a lot of summers at my granddad's. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>And it was an exciting time because all of my cousins used to go as well. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 14s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So we would spend a lot of time together. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>It's like having a big, extended family. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 23s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And me and my cousin and my siblings, we all went to <</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>My Granddad take us to our annual beach trip. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 32s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But I remember this beach trip in particular, I think I must have been <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>I want to say 12. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 39s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I remember exactly what I was wearing. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>I might have even been younger, but I remember exactly what I was wearing. I was wearing orange dungarees, and I was wearing like a white long sleeve t shirt. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 54s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I don't know why I was wearing long sleeves to the beach. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>And the dungarees. The dungarees. They were denim, but they were shorts. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 63s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And the reason why I remember is because we had jelly on the beach, and I remember the jelly being orange and matching. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>Oh yeah, I remember the jelly being orange and matching my outfit. And then I remember getting ice cream. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 84s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And like the original in terms of like vanilla or vanilla ice 99 I think it's called 99 <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>with the flake, you know, strawberry sauce and sprinkles. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>This was before I discovered bubblegum flavored ice cream, which is literally the best. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 102s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I remember holding the ice cream for so long. That it like melted. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 110s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah, I don't I don't actually have a memory of eating it. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 114s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But I have a memory of the ice cream like melting in my hands. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>And I quite enjoyed it. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 121s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And then I remember making sandcastles and I remember the real sense of freedom of putting my feet in the sand <</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>and the sea like by the seashore and almost your feet disappear as the tide comes in. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 139s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And then I remember we was playing stuck in the mud. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 143s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And then I remember collecting stones from that beach that I still have now. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>We painted them I remember painting the stones.<</type>><</timed>> <<timed 14s>><<type 40ms>>And one of them said freedom and I guess this is how I felt <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 162s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I felt free. No worries. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>It's a beautiful memory. I remember my my granddad had a fedora hat and we kept asking him to put sand in it - <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem022plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 2s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Okay, so I'm playing pirate mini golf at Pirate Cove mini golf in Arcadia National Park in Maine, USA.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>And I'm with my partner.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 19s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>A tall man with beard wearing a red t shirt and khaki colored hiking trousers.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 30ms>>We're playing mini golf after a long day hiking in Arcadia National Park.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 34s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>A hike that took us up three big peaks, the top where we could see the Atlantic Ocean glistening in the sun.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>And that blue of the Atlantic Ocean is I think the color of this memory.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 53s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So we're playing pirate mini golf, and I've never played mini golf before, and I'm just having so much fun.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>And I remember saying, I'm having so much fun.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 62s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Well, this is so fun. And I might have won I can't remember.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>But it was just the best time<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 71s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and that feeling of happy exhaustion after a long day of hiking and being out in nature,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>hearing the sounds of the birds and the sound of the ground,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 14s>><<type 40ms>>crunching underneath your feet, the occasional sound of other hikers exploring the park.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 91s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>But then, at the mini golf, there are the sounds of the golf club hitting the ball<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>and the sounds of pirate music and occasional pirate voices and catchphrases as we go through the course.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 109s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And then right at the end there's the sound of a cannon firing,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>which you could fire water at this pop up pirate that came in a little boat structure in the middle of a mini lake.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 123s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And then there's the taste of the food that came after.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>Which is just a store-bought pasta sauce.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>Nothing fancy, but something that just tastes amazing.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 140s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>When you're so tired, too tired to cook anything else and so hungry and just<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>Yeah, a feeling of complete contentment.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem018plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 1s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So the moment that I'd choose to spend eternity in is a bit of a weird one.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>Because it was one where I was overwhelmed with so much emotion<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 12s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I cried really, really hard in this moment.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>I was sat in a really small room with a friend.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 21s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And it was a few weeks ago, I remember.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>I remember feeling so<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>awake, I would say.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 37s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Um,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 30ms>>for some reason, I was recording what I was saying.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 44s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And I was planning on sort of having a conversation with someone.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 48.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And while I was recording myself, I was I was almost having a self counselling session,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>and I came to so many realisations in terms of who I am and the things that have been holding me back for years.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 65s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I'd say I felt liberated. I would say I felt empowered.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>Just felt awake and aware. And I guess the best phrase to describe it would be know thyself.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 86s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Because when you understand yourself, you are at your most powerful<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 97s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I would say the most significant. The most significant lines that I used in that moment were I used to shrink around white people.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 114s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>If I as one of the most high potential black students in the UK, struggle so much, I'm afraid to think of what other black people face.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 128s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I need counselling. But despite all of those realisations, I felt blessed to be on the other side to recognise<</type>><</timed>><<timed 16s>><<type 40ms>>that I was going to be okay and that there was nothing actually wrong with me.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 150s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And that all I needed to do was to stop shrinking. I felt really empowered.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>And so yeah, I would say it was a beautiful moment.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem026plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 3s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>In May of 2018 would be the moment I'd choose to spend for eternity. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 12s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>It was in my, my hometown,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>I was 17 years old, and the color was purple. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 20s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The sounds I hear are laughter.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>The smells are of smoke and drink. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 27s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The objects that were around was a lot of drugs, specifically ecstasy.<</type>><</timed>> <</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 33s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The person I could see was the girl that I had a crush on for years.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>And her brother and her best friend, which were also my friends.<</type>><</timed>> <</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 44s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The person I could see had glasses, big hair and it was curly.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>And the object was round, ecstasy, it was a little pill.<</type>><</timed>> <</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 57s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The words I could hear was PCH Cruising by Jaden,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>it was a song<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 64s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and how I felt in this moment, I felt really youthful.<</type>><</timed>> <</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem017plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 1s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Yesternight<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>I was sat on the couch with my toddler,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>my three year old toddler watching Dumbo.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 10s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And um<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>for the last two weeks, I've been off work<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 16s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and one of<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>something I worked on was released last night as well. And<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 25s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>it was something that represented what I stand for, as a black woman.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>Um<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>it is the kind of content I want to make,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 38s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and has impact<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>about black stories, about black history.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 45s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>earlier that day, we had had this session with the team who helped put this project together and just sitting with everyone sharing about how comforting it felt to be in a space where you could be unapologetically you<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 65s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>a space where you could<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>tell stories about you, people who look like you. Unapologetically. And I sat on the couch, watching Dumbo with my son<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>in my arms<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 79s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and saw the effects of our first episode play out for the world to see.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 88s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And that for me was my happy moment.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>I've watched it with my son many times. And just seeing his reaction.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 100s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>Although he didn't really understand what was going on. I just kept looking at his face, kept watching him, wanting him<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>to be proud, hoping he would be proud, hoping he would understand he stood on the shoulders of<</type>><</timed>><<timed 16s>><<type 40ms>>of these historical figures. And<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 122s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I couldn't ask for a happier moment.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 126s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>As a mother, as a creative<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>as a human being.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 132s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>At the core, everything I stood for<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>everything I stand for rather<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>was happening in that moment for me.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 141s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I was truly content.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 144s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>I was content that I had a legacy<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>in my son. To be able to watch stories of people that look like him and see them portrayed with respect on their names.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/mem010plus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 1s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>So I'm quite surprised at this memory, I wasn't expecting it.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 4.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>It's not the answer to any of the 11 questions that I answered,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>but it just sort of bubbled up and<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 30ms>>floated into my brain.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 13.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I think it makes sense because I think the only place where I actually feel at peace,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>when I'm enjoying myself, when I sort of see myself in a kind of more universal perspective,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 23s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and when I'm not dismissing, you know, pain and sadness or love for people,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>and when I feel like I'm fulfilled and creating something I'm creating value,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>but I'm also not self conscious, is that time<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>when I'm writing, you know,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 15s>><<type 40ms>>that sort of uncontrollable writing.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 41s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So my memory is actually writing the first thing I ever wrote as an adult.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 30ms>>And I was working in a pub called The Alwyne Castle, in Islington, and I was downstairs in between lunch shift and evening shift, and I was on a 20 minute break.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 57s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And I'd eaten and could taste like these chili chickpeas thing in this plastic pot, which was the only veggie option across the road in the corner shop<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 30ms>>and I sat on a Chesterfield sofa which was broken and all the stuffing was coming out and it's surrounded by wet tea towels and wet aprons.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 70s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>There was never a clean apron.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 73s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And, um, and I lost Flutterby I was writing this children's book called Flutterby the incredibly shy butterfly and I was 24 years old. And it was almost a year to the day that my dad had died.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 83s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I was incredibly unhappy and sad.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>And I started writing Flutterby about two weeks before this moment.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>And I'd lost her she was in the woods and I couldn't get her out like, and it was stressful.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 95s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>And then in that amazing way that writing does, the answer kind of just emerges from the page. And you can't do anything except write.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>And it's almost like you're not doing it.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 103.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>It's the same as maths, if you have a math problem, like have a nap because you reach this like subconscious state when you have an nap and all your knowledge rises to the surface,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 20ms>>and then you wake up and you get oh the answer's 12<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 113.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 20ms>>but when you're writing, the same thing happens<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 115s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>suddenly like is suddenly it doesn't feel like you're inventing it, it feels like it already exists. And you're just writing it down.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 123s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>Sounds really annoying. But anyway, this character came to the surface and his name was Foster.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>And, and he was a fox and he was the kindest, most wonderful character that I've ever written.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 137s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And he helped Flutterby get out of the woods<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 20ms>>in a really lovely way. And I just remember him saying, oh I can't remember - something about foxes being able to see in the dark, but he was, he was so wise.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 156s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And I remember this 20 minutes of being utterly consumed by this world that I had created.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>And it was such a wonderful place to be<</type>><</timed>><<timed 15s>><<type 40ms>>when I was in such a sad space.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<set $passage to "listen16">><<set $nextpass to "listen17">><<include $a16>>
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<<timed $length>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://youhavefoundconey.net/afterlife/archive/mp3s/train00.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>Hello, thanks for being here. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>Each person steps into a reconstruction, a recreation of the memory they've chosen for eternity.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>Here's a taste of the reconstruction process and the kind of questions it asks. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 16s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>I'll play you a memory chosen at random from a selection, <</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>but as you listen, I want you to keep a question in mind, <</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>which I'll ask you to answer when the recording's done. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 26s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>I'd recommend you have a pen and paper to hand to write down your thoughts. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>Let me know when you're ready to begin.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<div class="prefooter"><p>When you're ready, with pen and paper, press <<button BEGIN>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div>
<audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train01.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>The question for the first memory.<</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>If this memory conjures a feeling, an emotion, <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>which would it be? <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>Here's the memory.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train02.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>What feeling, which emotion does this memory conjure? <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>Be as specific as you can.<</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>Write this down if you like.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>When you have your answer, here's what's <<button NEXT>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train03.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>And is there a memory from your own life which shares this feeling for you? <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>Write down this memory and whatever you like about it. <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 9s>><<type 40ms>>And the feeling inside.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<div class="prefooter"><p>When you've written down whatever you want about this, here's what's <<button NEXT>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train04.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>Another memory now. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 40ms>>Another question. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>You can imagine an infinite collection of props and costumes, which we use to reconstruct each memory. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>The question for the next memory - <</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>What's the key object inside this memory? <</type>><</timed>><<timed 14s>><<type 40ms>>If you could only reconstruct one object, which would it be?<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train06.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>And in the memory from your own life which you've written down -<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>Is there a key object inside this?<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>Why? What significance does this hold? <</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 40ms>>Write down any thoughts.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>When you've written down whatever you want about this, here's what's <<button NEXT>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train05.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>What's the key object inside this memory do you think?<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>Don't write this down - but can you write down any reason why? <</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>What significance does this hold?<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>When you have your answer, here's what's <<button NEXT>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train07.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>The last memory now, and third and final question. <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>Do you think there's anything in this memory which is missing, or something the person would have changed if they could? <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>It's okay if there is. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 40ms>>And it's okay if there isn't.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train08.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>Anything you could think in this memory which is missing or would have been changed if they possibly could? <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 7s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>And inside your own memory you've written down, anything missing or anything you'd have changed if you could? <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>Again, it's okay if there isn't. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 40ms>>But it's also okay if there is.<</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 15s>><<type 40ms>>Take a breath. Write down your thoughts<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>When you've written down whatever you want about this, here's what's <<button NEXT>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><audio id="player" src="https://afterlifeexperience.org/audio/train09bestplus.mp3" autoplay></audio><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>The process of reconstruction continues to ask more questions like these.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>We guides take this material and use it to build a set on which your memory can live again. <</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>Looks a lot like a film set. <</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 14s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>You can begin to imagine the film set of your own memory. <</type>><</timed>>
<<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>When you see this for real, eternity begins.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><div class="prefooter"><p>You can continue to listen to the <<button STREAM>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div>
<div class="prefooter"><p>That's the end of this first step of training</p><p>You can listen to the <<button STREAM>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto stream00>><</button>> of memories</p><p>Or replay the <<button TRAINING>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto train00>><</button>></p></div>
<div class="prefooter"><p><em><<include q1>></em></p><p>Best to let the memory play through.</p><p>But if you feel you have your answer, you can choose to <<button SKIP>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><div class="prefooter"><p><em><<include q2>></em></p><p>Best to let the memory play through.</p><p>But if you feel you have your answer, you can choose to <<button SKIP>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><div class="prefooter"><p><em><<include q3>></em></p><p>Best to let it play through, but you can choose to <<button SKIP>><<set $prevpass to $passage>><<goto $nextpass>><</button>></p></div><<set $N to random(1,12)>>
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<span id="text"></span><<timed 0s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>So I'm on a student's trip, I was 16 years old, and we're sitting in a balcony at 4am in the morning with another teenager I had just met.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 40ms>>On that trip, it was like a warm night, almost summer.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 17s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And we were chatting while drinking black vodka.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 40ms>>And I remember my grandma had passed away, like two weeks before that trip.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 27s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I started talking to the stranger I'd just met some hours before.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 32s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And just by talking to him, we got to such a deep level of understanding of each other,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>that I suddenly realised I had never met someone like that<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 44s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>and without noticing I started talking about myself<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>and managed to talk about the difficult moment I was going through,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 56s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>and the grieving I was going through because of my grandmother's death.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 61s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And suddenly I started crying, and he started crying with me, and we hugged each other<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>and he told me how deeply sorry he was and I could believe his words, and I suddenly felt comprehended.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 78s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I think that was my first experience with love.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>I think I had like a glimpse of what love was going to feel like.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 87s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I think that first random experience with someone I never got to see again, was the perfect memory I would like to live in.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>> <<set $length to "104s">>
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<<timed 17s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>But I landed on<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 30ms>>a different story that I just can't ignore<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 30ms>>because it's something that<</type>><</timed>><<timed 12s>><<type 30ms>>has stuck with me.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 32s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>So in 2019, I was 20 years old in September.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 30ms>>My friends and I,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 41s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>me, this Italian girl, and this Colombian girl<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 30ms>>took my car and we drove to Vegas for a festival.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 51s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>Life is beautiful festival.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 54s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>I had gone through a really, really, really, really hard breakup and heartbreak.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 60s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And my ex boyfriend had come back to me that week saying he wanted me back so I was kind of already on a high from<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 30ms>>someone wanting me back.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 30ms>>Anyways,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 13s>><<type 30ms>>we get to the festival.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 76s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>We all know what happens when young people go to festivals, we indulge in alcohol and<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 30ms>>whatever but<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 86s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>I could actually talk for days on the entire festival but I'm gonna talk about this one night,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 90.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>I believe it was Saturday, I had lost my phone or got my phone stolen the night before. And for some reason, I did not care. Usually I would care so much, but I didn't care at all.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 30ms>>I lost all my photos, I retook them and nothing like nothing mattered, but everything mattered.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 106s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And on this Saturday night, we were going to watch Janelle Monae who was headlining, I had never heard her music before.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 9s>><<type 30ms>>But we were standing in the middle of this crowd.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 122s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And I see the colour red because I think that's what the stage was. And I didn't taste anything I didn't smell anything. And<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 30ms>>but all I'm hearing when I think of the memory is her guitar solo and one of her songs and I can hear it now. And she's speaking over it saying<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 136s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>you are here right now, turn to the person next to you and say you are here right now, or we are here right now.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 145s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And she goes on to say I love you. And everything is glowing, and my friends are sparkly. We're all in our festival gear, my skin is just on fire because everyone is so just electric and everyone is so together.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 162s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>And it also reminds me a bit of the night before or the next day whichever day it was where we're at the festival again and<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 171s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>Toto was playing. And of course he has that song Africa and it was we were all standing there waiting and just laughing with people and people were there to really just have a good time not to take photos not to do anything but have a good time.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 185s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And the one guy shouted, you know what we want to Toto because we're all waiting for Africa to come on even though I love a lot of his songs are such bangers and my god<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 195s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>I've never been in a crowd where everyone is bouncing for a whole song at the same time with the same energy just<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 205s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 30ms>>I've never felt so happy but but the memory is Janelle Monae because I was just blown away at how okay I felt with everything.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 217s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>I felt okay with my heartbreak up until then I felt okay with whatever the future is going to hold. I felt okay with being so far away from my family<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 30ms>>and being somewhat alone, but in a crowd with so many people and feeling okay,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 16s>><<type 30ms>>and having music just sewn into my bones because it was so loud but so beautiful.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 241s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And I felt like myself I was wearing what I like to wear. I knew who I was I had a good grasp on who I was and who I<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 30ms>>wanted to be and<</type>><</timed>><<timed 18s>><<type 30ms>>and it was so magical.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 264s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>To not worry.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 11s>><<type 30ms>>I think it just felt that.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 277s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>Yeah yeah<</type>><</timed>><<timed 2s>><<type 30ms>>that everything was going to be okay and it was just<</type>><</timed>><<timed 10s>><<type 30ms>>magical.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
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<<timed 7s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>My life consisted not in the abundance of things<</type>><</timed>><<timed 5s>><<type 30ms>>that I possessed.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 14.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>The Lord gives and the Lord takes.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 4s>><<type 40ms>>My life is in his hands.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
<<timed 21s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>And I know he loves me.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 40ms>>And I loves him.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>>
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This was, this was unbelievably exciting.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 71s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 30ms>>Something we had created, you know, a little three piece band from a two piece band really from Nottingham from the back streets of nowhere, really.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 79s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 30ms>>And we'd gone to all this effort and creativity and made this record and it was now being played on the radio.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 7s>><<type 40ms>>And this was exciting and exhilarating. 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And and he loved it. And it went on to be played by John Peel, and Janice Long and various other DJs around around the country.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 143s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 20ms>>But in that moment,<</type>><</timed>><<timed 3s>><<type 30ms>>in that moment of anticipation, where we had no sense of our achievement,<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 150s>><<replace #text>><<timed 1s>><<type 40ms>>no sense of the effort and the sweat and the arguments and that we'd put into this record and the money it had cost us<</type>><</timed>><<timed 8s>><<type 40ms>>and the effort we had to go to to find a pressing company and sleeve printing company<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 163.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 30ms>>back in those days, there was no... it wasn't joined up, especially if you wanted to do it without a record label.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 169s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>And we'd been rejected by so many record labels that we thought well sod it, we'll do it ourselves.<</type>><</timed>><<timed 6s>><<type 40ms>>And in that moment, as the song came to an end, there was a sense of anticipation.<</type>><</timed>><</replace>><</timed>><<timed 179.5s>><<replace #text>><<timed 0s>><<type 40ms>>What's he gonna say? 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